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TheIndianGuy · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 12:24 am Post subject: on a serious note

i shot up heroin with a friend on tuesday. just to get high with him he happened to move into my sober living home. we hung out one day i ended up getting rigs from that insulin kid. didnt tell anyone. my friend got teated n kicked out of the sober living home. i didnt get caught. i didnt tell my girlfriend. shes moving to florida. we hung out for probably the last time in a while today. took her bowling bought her dinner and took her to a movie. as i was leaving she took one of those red dare braclets from her weist put it on mine and told me to stay sober for her while were apart. i broke down when i left. i was trying to hold back tears as i was shooting up. i want to stop so badly. ;-;

Antagonist · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 12:39 am Post subject:

change your circle of friends bud

br0l0ck · Cheater Reputation: 63 Joined: 15 Aug 2007 Posts: 37

all or nothing
od on heroin already or give up and kill yourself or get better

TheIndianGuy · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 12:57 am Post subject:

i did change my circle of friends. if you didnt read this is a guy i havent hung out with in a while and moved into my sober living.

purposely od'd before and afterwards was glad the seizures and smacking my head on the ground from collapsing three times didnt kill me or do any noticable damage. i havent given up.

br0l0ck · Cheater Reputation: 63 Joined: 15 Aug 2007 Posts: 37

middle ground is worse than "giving up" which is a bad term for suicide.

youre putting yourself through more pain and trouble than if you were either better or just dead

Negima · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 1:05 am Post subject:

Its called moderation

TheIndianGuy · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 1:09 am Post subject:

Negima · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 1:10 am Post subject:

TheIndianGuy · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 1:16 am Post subject:

Negima · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 1:20 am Post subject:

Seriously though can you not just use it on weekends? I know its addicting as fuck but from my experience its not something that would ruin me, well maybe it would if i had a decent dealer who wasnt a fucking person with a high concentration of pigment in his skin

br0l0ck · Cheater Reputation: 63 Joined: 15 Aug 2007 Posts: 37

TheIndianGuy · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 1:28 am Post subject:

no, someone like me cannot just "use on weekends." it's either every waking moment or not at all. and part of me wants to continue using. the obsession to use is way too strong when you're an addict. once you cross that line of addiction you never go back no matter how long you abstain. no matter how hard you try to control it. it won't last long.

Negima · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 1:31 am Post subject:

Antagonist · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 1:34 am Post subject:

do you know anyone who overcame heroin addiction?

Negima · Posted: Sun Nov 02, 2014 1:36 am Post subject: