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teeigeryuh · Posted: Mon Feb 03, 2014 8:18 pm Post subject: justin the indian bieber

rude but

how does it feel to be an addict at this point of ur life?
dont wana be rude but im curious

what goes thru ur head when ur thinking about ur future? in 10 years?

TheIndianGuy · Posted: Tue Feb 04, 2014 1:03 am Post subject:

i don't mind you asking. it sucks a lot... i wish i never got into heroin. i've said it before, but i feel like it's the biggest regret of my life. honestly, i just feel like a loser and a bum. i'm very worried about my future if i continue using how i was. i really want to finish college, gain the motivation to work, start making money, becoming independent (not having to rely on my parents, not having them pay for all my expenses). for a long time i haven't wanted to be a piece of shit. i don't enjoy relying on drugs to feel normal. i don't enjoy breaking laws to get money for my drugs. i see my life going nowhere if i don't make a drastic change. i see people that have been using their whole life who are in their 40s and 50s now that didn't get out of their addiction and ruined their lives. i really don't want to be one of those people. i'm tired of this lifestyle and everything that has come with it. i'm hoping i'm able to turn this around this time. i know i can, but i need to continue doing it when i'm no longer being drug tested, no longer on probation, no longer in rehab, etc. when i have nothing stopping me from getting high is when it's really going to be tough.

Antagonist · Posted: Tue Feb 04, 2014 1:16 am Post subject:

you can do it man. good luck, youll be one of the people i look up to if you make it out of your hell hole. takes real balls to even admit what you say.

Cryoma · Posted: Tue Feb 04, 2014 3:09 am Post subject:

I laughed hard at the title because I imagined him cosplaying jb but with his high face eyes half open

InternetIsSeriousBusiness · Posted: Tue Feb 04, 2014 6:45 am Post subject:

teeigeryuh · Posted: Tue Feb 04, 2014 4:59 pm Post subject:

TheIndianGuy · Posted: Tue Feb 04, 2014 6:26 pm Post subject:

i have been going to an outpatient rehab as part of my probation along with AA meetings each week because i thought the outpatient program would be helpful. but it's not helping much. it's only two hours, once a week on the same day that i see my probation officer. so if i'm still getting high and avoiding testing dirty with my probation officer i also wont test dirty with the rehab. i still have too much freedom allowing me to get high. it's been a week since i've shot up heroin or done any drugs, but it's difficult for me to go much longer on my own.

i was planning to go back to college to keep me busy in the mean time but right now i don't have the motivation. i know i'm not going to want to wake up in the morning to get there. i don't want to waste my parents money, i'm worried about going back to jail in the middle of the semester for a probation violation (for too many dirty tests even though they've all been for weed). and don't have the motivation to work either.

so i decided to go to a more intense, inpatient rehab. i'll be far away from home, will be locked in a hospital from 7 to 8:30 p.m. 7 days a week, won't have any internet or contact with the outside world. i think it'll be a good experience since it will get me in the groove of waking up early and having at least a little responsibility. baby steps... once i get out of the rehab i plan to go to an intensive outpatient rehab since my outpatient rehab is a joke. and i'll probably live in a sober living home. i'll go back to school after summer and use the time in between to focus on my sobriety.

i think part of why i have trouble being motivated is because i continue to use drugs. and another reason is i'm used to doing nothing because i spend all my time just getting high, staying up late, waking up late and not having any responsibility. i'm hoping once i get into the habit of waking up early, have a routine going i'll get used to it and it will make getting back into what i used to do no problem. i used to love how easy school was. now the idea of going back to school seems like a lot of work. =/

the the the · Posted: Tue Feb 04, 2014 6:51 pm Post subject:

teeigeryuh · Posted: Wed Feb 05, 2014 4:49 pm Post subject:

Nibelton · Posted: Wed Feb 05, 2014 7:45 pm Post subject:

want my tip ?
you won't get it !
cuz you are not yet ready for life outside the matrix.

TheIndianGuy · Posted: Wed Feb 05, 2014 11:08 pm Post subject:

Nibelton · Posted: Thu Feb 06, 2014 12:21 pm Post subject:

as it was different ?
when your lazy ass is sitting in da chear and watching porn all day,but at some point you need to piss...and that means you need to stand up.
it's REAAALY hard to do it,but when you actually did it...you realize,that it wasnt so hard,in fact ! it's not hard at all ! YOU ARE JUST A FUCKING LAZY RETARD ! and this is a daily battle vs lazinezz.
there is no "i can't cuz i don't want","it's booring","it's hard".
JUST GO AND DO IT YOU PIECE OF LAZY CRAP ! if you want simple go and do it.
you can,or you cannot(due physically inability).
mental stuff is just an excuse to not to do.nothing more.
cuz no matter in what emotional dipshit you are,you still just stand and DO IT.
NO "BUT".period.

SF · Posted: Thu Feb 06, 2014 12:42 pm Post subject:

I'd like to suggest working out. Find a gym, or a YMCA, something, even a park. Just keep yourself busy and tire yourself out so you fall asleep easily without looking for a hit to help.

Negima · Posted: Thu Feb 06, 2014 2:43 pm Post subject:

InternetIsSeriousBusiness · Posted: Thu Feb 06, 2014 5:34 pm Post subject: